Oh how the mighty have fallen. I’d blame vacation, but really the downfall had started before that point. I reached my preliminary goal, and soon some of my bad eating habits started cropping up. Things improved for a few weeks while I was working 2 part-time jobs, but then one of them disappeared just before my vacation. I came back and was working random hours, was discouraged about being so underemployed, and my routine was totally off from being in Los Angeles for a week.
I started my new job mid-way through last week. It’s going to give me structure, but it also gave me food for a few days due to training sessions. I forgot what it meant to turn down that which was not needed, to eat only in moderation what I chose to eat anyway. It’s a bit of an eye opener to see how different I am eating now than a year ago. A year ago I would have carefully selected only the fruit, and would have turned away the pastries. Or I would have had the breakfast sandwich (had some protein to it) but only one. This year, I found myself lacking control. Actually, it was lacking the desire to control. It was there yesterday too. I found myself thinking, “Well, Monday’s going to truly start work, so I’ll get back on track then.” Then I realized the fallacy in that statement, and chose to start at that moment. Granted, that moment was after I’d already had too much, but still, I didn’t say “wait until Monday.” Today, we got groceries and I stocked up on fruit and my old standbys of yogurt and nuts. I didn’t get ice cream sandwiches, Kashi bars, etc. I don’t need those. True, I can have the occasional treat, but it can’t be every other night. My body needs fruit, it doesn’t need ice cream sundaes.
So anyway, I kept better track of my food today. I’m starting to get a smidge bit hungry right now, but that’s simply too bad. It’s 9 o’clock (I am backsetting the time on this, because I like it to be standard and be before the day’s food consumption), and I’m returning to my old rule of no food after 9. I’m hoping that I’ll have the courage to set it back to 8:30 and eventually 8:00 after I get used to it again. I’ve got to get my body readjusted though. It’s gone totally off track.
In the end, it’s time to set a new goal. I did reach my preliminary goal of 130 pounds, and much faster than I imagined. So now, my goal is 120. I’m small enough in stature (and bone structure) that that shouldn’t be too thin at all. I’ve been as close as 126 and still had some weight to lose in my problem areas, so I think I’ll set the harder goal and go for it. Because without anywhere to go, I think I’ll be back to spinning my wheels. Work should help a lot though. It’s full-time, and since I take my lunch, it helps to control my consumption at lunch time. Besides, not really supposed to snack at our desks, so that pretty much precludes most of my most rampant binges. I’ll still eat out from time to time, but I shouldn’t jump on those opportunities to gorge, but rather to have a small portion of something that tastes good and is good for my body as well.
Enough rambling, I’ve got my stats. No photos this week, I forgot to take them, and I’m too busy the next few days to care.
Stats:
- Weight: 131 pounds [+3 pounds, -36 pounds total]
- Bust: 33.5″ [no change , -4.5" total]
- Arms: right: 9.5″, left: 9.5″ [-0.25, -0.25"; -2.5", -2.25" total]
- Waist: 27.5″ [no change, -9" total]
- Hips: 38.5 [+0.5", unknown total loss due to error in first recording]
- Thighs: 37.0″ [+1.5", -7.0" total]
- Calves: right: 14, left: 14″ [+0.5"; -1" total]
